This is always the part I struggle with. I’ve decided on the course of action, aqua it is. Just as I’m placing that blog post I get a call from the gym telling me that my contract has been cancelled due to lack of attendance. Really! I mean give me a break.
The whole weekend I’ve wrestled with the meaning behind that. (I analyze, EVERYTHING!!) Is there something else I’m meant to do? Am I not ready for this yet? Will I be able to mount up enough courage to do the walk to the pool? What is it?
While I’m working through all this other stuff, my shopping self said “what the hell go crazy chic”. So I bought the leotard, with what is called “boy leg”, this is a short thing down there! Procured the latest in swimming caps, which cost almost the same as the leotard!! Hello! And found a very cute pair of Reebok water shoes on sale, very trendy!! I look like saving Nemo on steroids! All I need now is a sports bra, in my size, oh, wait they don’t make them in my size, huge surprise. Will have to figure that one out! Other than that, I’m ready!!!
Now all I have to do is rejoin the gym. Logged in on the website on Friday, giving all my particulars, and no one has called me yet, so will wait. Not sure how much money it took to get me this size, it’s costing a fortune just to “maybe” get it off.
That’s all on the physical side, I’m also having to do some work on the mental side. Other than being scared out of my mind, no really, talk is cheap. I’m aiming for the “gratitude attitude” thing. Being grateful and thankful that I have friends, family and an opportunity to get to do this! Before it’s too late! Balance is also important, will talk a little about all those things later on!
I will have to take a picture and put that up – it’s a scream! But plenty of guts needed before then!
Mwa
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